We all fall short

I hit a brick wall going about a buck ninety...with no restraint.  I flew through the windshield and I find myself lying on the floor looking up at the sky.  I am surprised I still have sight.  I must have closed my eyes instinctually knowing the...

Undebted

It's a hazy shade of winter kinda day...yes I know that's a Bangles song.  I like that song come to think of it.  I found myself listening to music and cleaning this morning since I'm off.  I started off with some Let the Bodies Hit the Floor and then...

Poof...

You can say things are looking up...so I need to savour the moment and hang on to it for as long as I can.  Or not.  At least appreciate it for as long as it wants to stay.  I've come to accept the world is upside down and I can either pound the...

Look at that awesome...nevermind...it's shit

I took two Xanax this morning.  I'm feeling sedated.  Anyone ever see the movie Drop Dead Fred?  About an imaginary friend this woman has since she was a little girl.  The psychiatrist gives her medication and with every pill she takes, he slowly...

Getting out of my mind...at least I'm trying

I have beaten myself up relentlessly...   When I'm hurt, I shut down. I think I've been in shut down mode for the past ten years. But that didn't stop shit from happening anyway. All it did was stop me from living...   I have chosen a life...

You don't have to have everything figured out...

"Is thing thing on?" (Tap tap on the microphone) The thump thump thudding loudly throughout the theatre.  Silence.  It was poetry open mic night.  "I have something to say, " she said "and please no interruptions.  I deal with enough interruptions in...

Suffering is not punishment

Sunday morning battles with God. I was watching Joel Osteen with all his God's a genie talk. It really bothers me when he and other preachers say that for all your suffering "God will repay you double." What? That makes no sense to me.  For example,...

Jim Morrison said it best..."forget the world"

I wish this euphoria wasn't muddled by the anxiety. The constant fear of the next tragedy. I was driving to work this morning and Hilary Clinton was doing an interview on the radio. I stopped to listen because I really wanted to hear the human....but...

Cheers to William!

My proudest mom moment yet: My son's report card is more than any parent can ask for. The grades are good but what made me cry was what the teacher wrote in the teacher's comment section. She said: "I recall our first parent-teacher conference where...

Changing roles

I've been on a purging kick since yesterday. When I fall into depression my closets turn into a mess. Only when I'm awaken from my stupor do I realize all that needs to be done. I'm not a messy person. Everything is clean. But in order for me to feel...

A plague on their house

Evil sleeps around.  In between the sheets with Betrayal and Lies.   Often with Cheating, Evil can be found just hanging around. Birds of a feather.    Enemy finds a home with Selfish and Careless.  Oblivian serves them breakfast.   None...

Online diaries tell all...

I had a slight scare earlier on when I thought this site was gone forever since the page kept redirecting itself to "Swirl Console."  In a panic, I decided to copy and paste all of my writing in a word document.  I'm glad I did.  I started reading...

Johnny Depp and Amber Heard

I can't even help but follow this story.  Here's my 2 cents....I don't know what went on behind their closed doors, no one really does.  With that said...Your Honor, I am so scared of this man.  He is abusive, violent, abuses drugs, etc. etc., but...